Just wanna call him up...
Just wanna call him up & be like “Take it or leave it” but I’m afraid to because I have a feeling he’ll leave it, cause he doesn’t need me as much as I need him.
I want to be someone’s last call of the night and their first thought in the morning. I want those 5 hour conversations that end in “no you hang up first.” I want the heart racing palm sweaty “whats going to happen next” moments. I want the hugs that you never want to let go of and the stolen kisses that are always the sweetest. But most importantly, I just want to know that someone considers me theirs.
You know we both said it..”I love you”..”I love you too” The only difference? I didn’t lie.
I know things will never work out between us but I’m afraid that if I stop trying then it’ll be final, but if I don’t give up then I can still have hope, hope always makes me feel more secure.
My clothes remind me of him what I wore when I hung out. I can still smell him all over them, even though his scent hasn’t been there for long. I wish his scent would be stuck on me, but I know would be pulling at my skin trying to get him off me.
I’m online, he signs on, and I want to yell at him to go away, but I just watch the screen waiting for him to say anything, but then he signs off, and I tear myself apart for not saying anything to him. I stop talking to my friends, and they get worried and try comforting me, but they just make me feel worse because they think they know, but they don’t, they don’t have a damn clue.
Life is for having fun. Don’t be stupid and waste it on some guy/girl who is gonna act like he/she hates you tomorrow. Never waste it on some one who doesn’t want their friends to know they’re in love with you. Don’t give that person the rest of you tears or a month or a year of your life when he/she treats you badly and doesn’t mind to make you cry. Every person deserves some one who wants to brag about them. Every person deserves some one who makes them smile and laugh at their worst moments.