A dark sea churns in my chest,
I feel like I’m losing breath,
Fear clogs up my throat,
In anxiety’s chokehold
Deep breath in and out comes choppy both ways
I want to scream! Should I pray?
Out the window goes rational thinking,
Worst scenarios playing
What if? What if? The room is too small
Or I’m too big I don’t know I don’t know
Help me! Help me! Please don’t touch me
I’m surrounded yet isolated
I think my friends are secretly bored of me,
My mother never wanted me,
Father left me,
Brother hates me
All that’s left is me
I’m scared, I’m scared
Of myself and of the world
Who am i? Who am i?
Everyone else seems to know except i
Why? I ask, why?
Failure encloses me in folds of cold darkness
My heart begins to beat more not less
It’s as though I captured
A bird and locked it away in my
Chest. Beating, banging, struggling to escape
Locked in my mind I slowly suffocate.
This post was submitted by Xavia Krone.