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I feel so sad…
I have to say goodbye to one of the most important part of my life…
A part of me that no one ever knew…
A part of me that’s so unconditional…
A part of me that was never confirmed nor denied…
A part of me that will remain special forever…
But then again…
I’m giving it up…
Because it hurts…
Because it wasn’t right…
Because it was never mine…
Because i have to…
I’m saying goodbye now…
-1
Last time we spoke
the silence still hadn’t been broken
we talked to each other with words unspoken
simply looked you in the eyes
still wondering why??
gave you back your hood
the one i just loved to wear
you gave me back the picture frame
that held that memory from our first date
to this day i sit alone in my room
wishing you’d call me boo
walking in the halls
or even down the street
i hear our song and makes me feel weak
the internal connection
that cause my heart to become inflicted
the emotional detachment that i have to make
and that one fatal memory
i have stored in my mind forever
all i can say is
I Remember…….
May 16, 2011 Monday 5:28 P.m.
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I used to love you,
The way you curled my hair,
But now the feelings are gone,
and ‘i love you’
Turned into ‘i don’t care’
Yes i really did love you,
and my feelings were truly there,
but you drove me away,
You hurt me,
but there are no signs,
because no one can see how much my heart has cracked,
You can’t make me stay,
I’m not turning back,
If you had of done things differently,
Maybe there might have been a way,
If i had stayed with you,
would i have seen the sun again?
Things seemed so hopeless at this time,
It was like i was dragging my heals,
screaming,
begging just to be found,
You knew our relationship had been slowly falling down,
Till one day we had slipped and hit the ground!
I’m sorry i have to say this,
But there is no way out,
and if i don’t jump now,
I’m afraid i will drown,
I loved you,
but now that’s just words,
something that has lost it’s meaning,
and had gone for worst,
so right now its best to just say goodbye, I’m leaving you now,
Live you life happily,
I just wasn’t your gal.
-1
I can’t say i didn’t see it
I tried to pretend
Tried to hide
But i let my heart be my guide
Wrong move
I can say on my part
I should have stopped it from the very start
Now i sit here ready to part
Yea i finally said it
Wish i could say i feel better
But i can’t
What can i say?
This is where i stand
I can’t do this anymore
You’re suppose to be my man
We barely speak
Saying hello is our biggest peak
Our goodbyes are quick kisses
And short glances
I guess it’s good….
Under the circumstances
The crazy part is…..
I gave you me and learned to love you
I realize now,
I didn’t have to
I don’t want to
I have a choice
A choice to be happy
Yea I know we’re married
We all make mistakes
And this was one I made!!
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All the screams,
all the lies,
circle me at night,
I lie awake unable to sleep.
The anger in your eyes haunt me.
Your bitterness will never fade.
I wished you a better life,
now I wish you’d just die.
the day we said goodbye wont go away,
the tears have came to stay.
God, take away this pain.
look around an find a knife.
Pick it up an start to cry harder then before.
slide it across my wrists with bitterness
I watch as the blood pours out of my skin.
blackness finally comes
this is our goodbye.
-2
As Time Passed..
Hugs Got Rare,
Calls got Quieter,
Nights Got Lonely,
Fights Became Usual,
Kisses Became Shorter,
Hellos Got Distant,
Good-Bye Got Frequent.
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When the first teardrop fell
So did my heart
It hit the floor
And shattered apart
I don’t blame you
No, not at all
You had too do what you had to
That’s all
I would’ve gone another way
Not the way you went
And wasted all of the time we spent
Laughing and hugging
No pushing or shoving
You made your choice
Stick with it
I won’t be here when you change your mind
Forget It
This is where I say goodbye
Now your free
Spread your wings….
Fly.
-3
It’s hard to say goodbye,
when you’ve never had to try.
I cant push out emotions,
on to the surface, i cant focus.
It’s hard to say dont go,
because our time wont slow.
time is not a friend to me
and patience will not try for me.
It’s hard to say don’t leave,
when you would never say it to me.
i have to let you go,
but i cannot let you know.
i wont hold back you dreams,
that is too selfish of me,
we cheated time by loving life,
but now we must, pay the price.
its hard to say it’s me,
that made you have to leave,
it hurts more than hurts my pride,
it clings to me and
beats on a high.
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Once upon a time
a story of mine
i got ready for school
finding ways to make lame excuse
crying,yelling,nervous and frightened
teacher’s scolding made me threatened
sitting with others all around
wanted to go home but i was
bound
days passed ,months passed,years passed fastly
i grew in the lap of dis school initially
full of dreams,desires and
aspirations
teachers of dis school made
my inspiration
from nursery to 12 the studied here
departing from school is something ,i can’t bear
this school has made me
stand on my own
to earn my livings,follow the
path they have shown
the school where i was all alone
gradually became my second home
friends .classrooms and all
pranks played
studied for long hours in
the lamp shade
all those fights,all that fun
are gonna be sweet memories in the long run
every moment enjoyed
whether god or bad
leaving dis school makes all
us sad
may dis institution progress day and night
wish for its success and shall reach new heights
although school journey is
going to be an end
but gonna relish the
memorable time we have
spend
leaving this school very sadly
but student of ‘SACRED HEART CONVENT SCHOOL’ can say very proudly…………..
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One Day You Look For Us……Like We Did For Years…
One Day You Cry For Us……..Like We Did Every Day..
One Day You Really Love Us..Like We Did Every Minute..
One Day You Reach For Us….Like We Tried Every Second…
But..
Forever You Lost Our Love……..Like You Lost Us…
Forever You Lost Our Feelings..Like You Never Had…
Forever You Lost Your Kids…….Like You Never Will Hold..
Forever You Banned Yourself…..Like You Did With Us….
Its To Late To Turn Back,The Damage Is Done,
The Hurt Is There.The Time Has Gone
Remember The Love Of Your Kids Was Pure..
You Trow It All Away Like You Never Cared
One Day you Remember This All,But The You Know….
Its To Late To Return,The Damage Is Done
The Dream Is Over,The Story Has End….
GoodBye,
+1
Why are goodbyes,
So hard to say?
When we always leave,
When we never stay?
When we hide our tears,
And douse our fears?
When we open our hearts,
And open our ears?
When we mess up our hair,
And we sit down and stare?
It’s just so darn simple,
It’s the fact that we care.
-1
Not knowing why is the biggest problem.
Every time i think of you i want to break down and cry.
I want your arms around me.
I want to hear ‘i love you’.
i wish i could make you see.
How hard it was to say goodbye.
you were, and always will be my everything.
But i have no strength left to try.
So please take this as my last goodbye.
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Some has to bid goodbye,
To make you grow,
To have a new life…
Like a flower,
Who’s beauty fade,
A bud reborn…
Acceptance set us free,
From the prison cell of pain,
Of hearts maladies…
Accept…
Only then,
You can be truly happy…..
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The promise that i made to you I must now break .
I wish I did not have to, but it’s the risk I must take .
Reality is finally setting in, and it’s been awhile since I could honestly realize.
I guess we were always meant to say goodbye .
My want for you slowly fades as will today .
At times I get it confused with a need that sometimes I crave .
My love for you will never die, but I have no clue what tomorrow lies .
I just sit here hoping and praying that I will not cry .
So, I will continue to hold on to todays precious moments .
Hoping that they stay in the same place until we can find all our missing components .
I rather have some of you than none of you, even though I just rather just have all of you .
But I have come to the conclusion that it is impossible .
Thinking of you triggers me .
Knowing that things will never be complete .
And at times it bothers .
I no longer will speak merely because I am too weak .
The memories cant help but make me weak .
For some odd reason my heart can’t help but skip beats .
Hating you is hard but loving you is even harder .
It’ has been a long ride .
Emotionally we are both tired .
I couldn’t just walk away without looking at you once more .
Dazing into your eyes even though it’s still very much obscure .
Life is what you make it, it’s pretty much your choice .
You choose to listen and to hear my voice .
When I walk away I will not look back , because knowing how you feel is what made me atract .
+1
was it all just a lie
was it just a simple game
please say no babe
dont bring me to shame
tears freeze on my cheek
your warm heart no more
every time i hear i sound
i dream of you at my door
it cant be the end
nor be goodbye
if i didn’t love you girl
do u think id have cried
though its not what i want
nor not what i need
why do you act like this
angry and controlled by greed.
a heart i don’t know
unfamiliar and strange
maybe might still be
at the coming of age
+34
My heart is sunk and moist is eye,
As nothing is more painful than the last good-bye.
These two words would change my life forever,
As a life without you, I thought never.
Remember that time together we spent,
Like a wind of joy that came and went.
Now we stand at the road’s end,
To choose our path and our lives to mend.
I hope that God will make up for this loss,
And maybe in future our roads will cross.
Till then I thank you for the moments we shared,
And for me, so much, you loved and cared.
Good-Bye to you, oh my soul beloved,
To the good old relationship that we both served.
+29
One day I will watch you walk away
as you wave goodbye
One day I’ll surrender you to her
the day you will leave me for her
One day I’ll watch her make you smile
and see her holding what used to be mine
One day you’ll share your dreams together
and you’ll belong to her forever
One day you’ll see me never
and I’ll be gone forever
One day I’ll realize that nothing makes sense anymore
for the one that I’m breathing for
One day will love someone else
and will leave me with goodbyes…
+86
From the day I met you,
I felt everything was new
waking up each morning with a smile
taking away the pain that i feel for a while…
but love seems not to be fair
because you hurt me and give me a tear
how I wish I didn’t met you
how I wish I never loved you
for loving you just means “goodbye”
I must go on with my life
and forget the wound i have inside
for I know time will come that this pain will subside
saying goodbye would be the best I guess
setting you free is maybe your happiness
but always remember this…
though you hurt me so,
I’ll still always love you
but saying “Goodbye” would be the best thing to do..
+171
You were the key to my heart
you were the ray of light in the dark
you were everything I needed in life.
It was easy loving you
But it’s hard forgetting you
I don’t remember feeling this empty
Don’t remember you being so angry
I thought we were always going to be together
Thought we were meant to be forever
My heart has been locked once again
Locked into a box just like back then
I couldn’t breathe without you
Couldn’t move without you
Couldn’t see without you
Couldn’t fall asleep without dreaming of you
But it’s time for me to move on
I will no longer be your pawn
Because our love has died,
Just let me say,
Goodbye.
+21
I wish you needed me
Like I needed you
I wish you wanted me
And loved me too
I wish I could feel your grasp around me
And didn’t feel so ashame
I wish you could take away all the pain
I remember everything
Especially the memories good and bad
I wish these things would not make me so sad
Well I hope you move on and have a good life with her
I hope you notice I can compare for sure
Well now is my time to say good-bye forever
I love you always
I wish you would forget me never