+8
Just when I was putting the pieces back together and thinking it was going to heal
You came in the picture,
I thought I would have control and keep my self from falling for you,
But I was too weak and naive,
Talking and laughing together I thought things are going good
Yet again I was wrong and I got hurt,
Crying wont help throwing a fit wont help either,
So I’m gonna let my heart be in these pieces and not touch it,
Whatever life goes on right?
Lets keep saying that maybe I will believe it one day,
Insanity and tolerance can take so much,
But lets let it be
In the end we will see who loses and wins
Love is but a game.
+8
Trapped inside alone and scared,
Terrified at what comes next.
It could be the broken silence of love,
It could be the time that i say goodbye.
now I tell myself it wants to be a tie.
The love broke in two separate places,
It told me the truth.
its soundless and lonely,
There is nothing to lose.
All the shame and the time,
you told me I wasted.
All the tears and the pain,
oh the lies I have tasted.
You tell me to leave it,
but you don’t say goodbye.
I know i should say it,
But I’d be telling a lie.
Its not like me to act this way,
but now its time to simply say.
Its not that i wanna lose,
its not that I’m letting you go,
But you broke my heart and left it there,
so I think its time,
I think its fair.
Time goes on and it finds something new,
I think it be great for both me and you.
Im sorry to say this,
who should I be ,
Spending my time,
Letting you control me.
+24
Your life has come to a tragic end
Addictions and demons you no longer fend
Why you chose to leave at this time and place
Is something we will never know or have to face
Your battles are over they have come to rest
You were tempted once more but failed the test
You’re at peace now Shaun
With a brand new dawn
So no longer now shall I weep alone
We’re only separated by space, an unknown zone
I know that one day together we’ll be
Not just for a while, but all eternity
+16
if i could just explain to you exactly how i feel
I’d write it in a poem like this to show you I’m for real…
so let me try and write this rhyme without an ounce of skill…
but with every inch of effort for you
just like my love for you still…
i love you more than life itself…more than the bones i play…
the love i have for you deep inside makes me miss you more each day…
i constantly think every day of the good times that we had…
i also think every day that sometimes they were bad…
but never mind how bad it was…
’cause we always made it through..
and i went to sleep every night with my arms holding you…
remember when i would rub your back before we went to bed?
i wish i wasn’t huggin’ this blanket thinking it was you instead…
it’s sad to think it’s been so long since I’ve felt your touch…
and whispered softly I’m your ear, “Honey I love you so much”
when i did sometimes you’d smile…
then I’d get a kiss its funny how when it comes down to it
it’s the small thing that you miss…
the other night i had a dream..
as usual you were there laying in a bed of snow-white roses…
with a single red one in your hair…
you spoke to me with a gentle voice,” make love to me please”
and just as i had asked the Lord for this
i fell down to my knees…
i kissed you softly on your neck…
and smelled the sweetest scent
once our two souls became as one…
i realized whr love meant
so from now til eternity
and long after i perish…
my heart will always belong to you
and yours i will always cherish
+27
The sun has set and yet we have not met…
I sit alone by the shallow sea…
And wonder whats awaiting me…
thinking of what has happened and never letting go…
i cant let my feelings show…
Why? i have no answer…
Time is fading faster…
Thinking of what is and how long i will last here…
Now its time to say goodbye…
I promised myself i would not cry…
Looking up at the night sky one last time…
I see your face and quickly i erase…
+7
Titles are nothing
days seem so fast
life seems so short
and yet
seconds take forever
because i wish them not to end
I shall hold to seconds
with every breath i take
because those seconds are with you
and there is where i really want to be
in your arms
no matter the mood
no matter the day
time is endless when i am with you
+45
It’s hard to know that you’re gone.
The pain has yet to subside.
But the thing that hurts me the most,
Are these feelings I can’t seem to hide.
I sit alone in my room
Trying to understand why,
Every time I think of you,
All I can do is cry.
I wonder if you still think of me.
Though I tore your world apart.
I hope that you can forgive me.
I never meant to break your heart.
These days are becoming longer.
And you’re constantly on my mind.
Why is this so hard on me.
My past I can’t rewind.
Let me know your thoughts.
Tell me how you feel
Beause the pain I have inside of me.
Is something I need to kill.
+29
Scars she couldn’t hide
Bruises on her back
Pain she always felt
Love is what she lacked.
She never really knew
Or understood why
He loved to see her hurt
And loved to see her cry.
One day she began to tell him
Just what was on her mind
She never got to finish
The words were left behind.
She never saw it coming
Not a thought was in her head
She lay there on the floor
Cold, alone, and dead.
+22
You always know how to make me smile
Especially when I haven’t seen you in a while
We always seem to be on the same page
even though we are far apart in age
+7
How did I let you come in and control all of my life?
How can something like you cause me so much sadness and strife?
You controlled when I cleaned, you controlled when I worked
The responsibilities I had you made me shirk
You made me neglect all the things that I held dear
You made me do things that I would normally fear
You made me sleep and controlled when I woke
You made me start rows, you made me provoke
You controlled when I bathed, you didn’t care if I wasn’t clean
You made me become selfish, you made me be mean
You made me believe things that were lies and not true
You left me feeling sad, so lonely and blue
But because of all these things you have made me wise
Because of all these things I have come to realize
That there’s no point in fighting a battle I’ll never win
There’s no point trying to take it on the chin
Today is the day that I give up the fight
Today is the day that I surrender to your might
+38
To sum up life,
Is not a hard task.
We may cut with a knife,
Or wear a mask.
The de ja vu.
All the lies,
All the truth.
The tears we cry,
Me and you.
We may hate,
We may love,
Emotion is a gift from above.
So live your life,
Because life is worth living,
Whether you take,
Or whether you’re giving.
-3
Eyes so green.
Like ones in a sweet dream.
Eyes so round.
Shining like moonbeams.
Eyes so pretty.
Loveliest in the city.
Eyes so bright.
Like stars shining in the night.
Eyes so soft.
Like those of a spotted doe.
Eyes so tender.
Brings to the heart sweet surrender.
+3
A sweetheart is one of God’s greatest creations.
Whose love brings to the heart.
A sweet sensation.
She makes everyday worth living.
Her love is always there for the giving.
A love that makes sorrow take flight.
That lights up the heart.
Like fireflies light up the night.
-2
I’m trying to reach you,
But there is a Wall.
This wall is nothing,
But to me it keeps me from talking.
This wall doesn’t let me talk,
I want to speak my mind.
This wall is all around me,
It doesn’t fall down and crumble.
I want to talk to you,
But when i get close i hit against it.
I was to speak freely,
but this wall is heavy against me.
I can feel the pressure,
I can see the wall pushing me.
But want to talk to you,
But i can’t because its my feeling.
+13
Worlds and beyond I must say
are where my dreams lie
They go far beyond the visible sky
And deep beneath the sea floor
Even through the darkest hour I say,
I see my future so bright
Like the undeniable shine of the sun
So loud it echoes those of my dreams
Then I know I will get there now or later
For the promise of the future is so near
That I can almost feel it with the touch of my hand
+47
No longer am I breathing,
As I lie beneath the ground,
Though once my rage was seething,
It does not make a sound,
My heart which was pounding,
Is lifeless in my chest,
My virtue, so resending,
I did it for the best,
Many dead lay at me feet,
And now I lie at theirs,
My assignments I did try to meet,
And honour my forebears,
My lungs which once were gasping,
Are airless in the earth,
The memories, ever grasping,
I’ll have no second birth,
The deaths I caused are countless,
And yet I buried none,
So many call me heartless,
For killing their beloved sons,
I was a devoted Nazi,
Or perhaps a mindless slave,
For no one comes to mourn me,
Or lay flowers at my grave.
+13
When you left me, butterfly,you took a part of me.
for now i feel so empty, just like a hollow tree.
when i met you, butterfly, you looked so sweet and kind.
we looked each other in the eyes, and i knew that you were mine.
why’d they take you butterfly, you didn’t want to die.
all you did was spread you’re wings, and up and up you’d fly.
it all happened in the springtime, it was either March or May.
every tree we would climb, every minute spent was play.
i had loved you butterfly, but thta you didn’t know.
We would always be together, through sun, or rain, or snow.
if i had told you of my love, you wouldn’t have to go.
i knew that something happened the day you didn’t show.
i tried to watch t.v but the only thing was news,
just a bad actor talking and an old man singing blues.
Unitll i got to twenty eight, it was there that my heart stopped.
what i saw almost made me faint, my heart shattered as it dropped.
for there i saw your picture, you looked so kind and sweet.
but what the camera showed, was you sprawled there on the street
they wanted me to go outside, to go run along and play
but i would rather stay inside, it was a sad and lonely day.
fly away butterfly, for you are in my heart.
and even though we’re not together, we’ll never be apart.
+19
You tell lies like a second language
Oh you learned it well
You break hearts like a force of habit
It must come natural
It’s just another game to you
You must be on your winning streak
You see these tears fall down my face
A replayed seen viewed too often
This heartache asphyxiates me
And you stand there breathing easy
I am drowning in my suffering
While you stand on shore watching carelessly
As if you don’t even notice..
One day maybe you will see
That I loved you
But my heart can not bear this pain much longer
So Until then,
and as of now,
Farewell my dear..
I must let go.
+11
She opens her eyes and stretches her wings.
She flies underneath the golden sun.
Wings in a pattern of purple and blue
Peacefully fluttering just about the yellow dandelions.
Her and her beautiful wings.
+29
When i look in the mirror,
all i see is a girl,
unfamiliar to me
As the strangers we see every day
This girl i see wears a mask
to hide who she truly is inside
I see a fake smile
to hide her sorrow
Every day, I see this girl
and Every day people fail to see me,
inside the fake
She talks to me
to keep her from going insane,
All the while crying
to heal the pain
