+47
She wore a broken smile
For just a little while.
She’d paint it on everyday
For no certain reason,
Not the color of the season,
The simple shade of gray.
The shameful walk,
Oh if walls could talk
I wonder what they’d say.
“There she goes,
No one knows
How she begged him to stay”.
But she stood there so confused
That night, broken and used
And watched him drive away.
Black rivers roll down her face
His love no one can ever replace.
A scar this deep will stay.
A river of red,
A concrete bed
Is where she will now lay.
+13
The steps became quiet
your figure faded
your taste left in my mouth
you said you loved before but not like this
I was young and in love
so stupid to get it
I can’t figure it out why you did this
maybe the girl I was then is different
changed and grown not so frisky
memories start to fade and more things I get
my heart is held together with glue and stitches
you were gone nothing was left
I wanted you back
how sad is that
I’m so through with that
cos honestly you turned out to be the best thing that left
+14
Finally forgetting you, because you do not belong in my heart.
Finally forgetting you because, you can always move on to the next.
Finally forgetting you, because the love I gave to you wasn’t near enough of what you wanted from me.
Finally forgetting you, because you truly do not deserve a BEAUTIFUL soul like me.
Finally forgetting you, because I’m wasting my time here with you.
Finally forgetting you, because my tears aren’t worth the laughs you probably are sharing right now.
Finally forgetting you, because we aren’t meant to be and you have to go…
I’m sorry but Good-bye.
+19
You threw away what we had because you’re scared,
You refused to embrace what made you care.
You chose to leave me to be alone,
You said you loved me but now that’s all gone.
What’s the point in pretending you don’t want this,
When your kiss, said the complete opposite.
Why destruct the love we have,
How hard is that for you to understand.
Now we’re left on either side with tears,
Wishing that it would never come to this.
Wanting to hold each other so tightly in our arms,
But left with nothing but a pillow to cry on.
+12
So I know that it was wrong of us,
To hold on, to pretend,
And if love could write a song for us,
The break down wouldn’t end,
I’m climbing up the walls inside my mind,
Only to fall down to my heart,
And I had thought for all my time,
I could be yours
I could be yours
But don’t look back now,
There’s nothing here,
It’s exactly what you wanted,
But did it really have to take three years?
+29
I remembered those days when we were happy
and the times when you loved me faithfully
but where are they, what happened to me
I’m left with the decision of setting you free
I live my life with a broken heart
where every cry is the painful part
your voice, your touch, your hug and kiss
is what I look for and truly miss
I tried to pretend that everything’s okay
even tried to forget you and to stay away
but my heart keeps telling me only to stay
though how painful it is to love you everyday
If fate and love is really fair and just
then let me know if this love won’t last
so I could just move on and forget the past
because this world is never meant for us
+45
You left me alone, a turning point in my life,
I always believed you, no matter in what
Your last words are still in my heart,
It’s hard to believe, sorrow in my life
I will always be a friend to you, wonder how you are,
The bond will always be there, and stays with us
I will never wish to leave you, please don’t break my heart,
The pain it causes for me, is hard more enough
You once said you loved me, but that all soon changed
I can’t smile while hurt, but still giving you a fake one
Screaming from the pain, with my thoughts being of you
Loving the pain still, because you gifted me that one
I know you will never know how much I love you
And how much I miss you, and how much I deserve you
Yeah, I know you will never know how much I love you
And how much I care you, and how much I obsessed into you
Do you believe love is everlasting?
Or else I’ll prove you how it is
Do you believe love is never breakable bond?
Or else I’ll prove you because I can’t stop loving you
I know you will never know how much I love you
And how much I miss you, and how much I deserve you
Yeah, I know you will never know how much I love you
And how much I care you, and how much I obsessed into you
+20
I never expected someone like you in my life..
Every rainy evening reminds me of the time i have spent with you..
And every rain drop touching my face
Turned as a tear from my eye
Rolling down my cheeks and falling on my heart which beats for you..
Then I realized that a tear cant heal my broken heart..
I wanna move away from your thoughts..
But I’m bind by chains of your love
Which are squeezing my heart to its last drop of blood..
Giving me a stabbing pain.
+29
Once trapped in the dark with no one to hold,
I would scream your name to see if you were there.
You didn’t show up so I screamed even louder.
I began to lose my hope I had in you,
I felt like I was stuck in a nightmare without you.
It was dark and cold,
It felt like years I went with out you.
Just me, myself, and I,
No one to talk to but myself.
Only your love could save me from the darkness that trapped me.
It’s hard to be stuck here with only me,
I heard your voice every where i went for a long time.
Your face was the only thing I could see.
I remember the last words you said to me
“I love you but your not the one for me”
+16
One day, you’ll want silence,
but there will be harsh violence.
One day, you’ll want peace,
there will be no one to cease.
One day, you’ll cry loudly,
and there won’t be any shoulder to wipe your tears gently.
One day, you’ll be wanting to smile,
and you’ll have to walk miles.
One day, you’ll want a hug,
and there will be no one to give you a warm coffee cup.
One day, you’ll want LOVE,
but that would be too tough.
One day, you’ll be really mean,
that you never had seen,
One day, when you’ll want me,
One day, you’ll want to see me,
One day, for me you’ll sing a song,
and I will be GONE!!!!
+2
Toward the shore we sail
We
lonely travelers
If we could only find the way
to be born again
and again
into the naked mornings
and our bare thoughts tremble
restless scratches
the skin of the night
In the boat of hope
We sail
towards you
O dawn
rising above the eyelids
grown heavy
And no one has the strength
even a grain of strength
to put at least a comma
+44
Do you remember when you said you loved me?
Do you remember telling me you cared?
Do you remember saying,
You will always be there?
I loved you with all I had
With everything I owned,
I just want to hear you
I want to pick up the phone.
But then I think, why?
Why am I calling you?
Is it possibly because
I have nothing better to do?
You said I was the best you ever had,
Do you still think the same?
Will you please bring me back,
Into this game?
I loved you, and I still do,
But I must try to let go.
Try not to think of
All my old hopes.
+23
I look at her and then at you.
I realize what this comes to.
You’re eyes directly avoid my stare.
My heart is broken and you don’t care.
I look at her and then at you.
I can’t accept the fact we’re through.
The very last time we hugged.
I admitted you were the first boy I ever loved.
I look at her and then at you.
You won’t ever understand the pain you put me through.
Each day I cry from memories with you.
You hurt me; something you promised you would never to do.
I look at her and then at you.
Do you do anything like we used to.
Either way I’ll never know.
Your heart is just to dark to ever show.
+14
If you say you’ll take me back,
I’ll take you back,
if you say I love you,
I’ll be in love with you,
but I won’t interfere,
I won’t try to get my way,
because I had my chance,
and I screwed up,
sorry,
I don’t expect a second chance,
but if I do get one
I promise it will be different this time around.
+63
I cant sleep my heart is shattered,
I’m going to replace everything that mattered,
There’s no one in this life to trust,
My cold metal heart is bound to rust,
Everyday is getting old,
What other problems will life unfold?
Take a deep breath of air, fill my lungs with THC,
For a couple hours my stress is free,
I ponder how to improve the situation,
10 steps forward without hesitation,
Everything makes sense, the timing was right,
A step from the past is a tough fight,
Not one tear im proud to say,
My life is just a different shade of gray.
+15
You went off when i told you not too,
You said it was the best thing,
Yeah for you,
Once he spoke he last words
Goodbye,
he made my tear,
worth nothing like i was nothing,
Why is it that the bestest memories
usually become nightmares…. why
you only left.
without even saying sorry,
I cry and cry…
and know i realize…
you left me with tear inside my soul..
+48
I was confused inside
Not knowing what I wanted out of life
I was wrong in the choice I made
Wish I could take back the hurtful things said
I should have listened to me
Not the stupid people talking
I should have known myself
Before opening the door and walking
I now I miss you more then I thought
And I know we’re still close friends
But in a way, that hurts even more
Because when I see you all I want to do is kiss you
I tried pleading to get you back
But all you said was no
You told me you need more time
But how long will that drag on?
I realize I hurt you
And you probably want other girls
But please don’t forget the one
Who still wants your heart to be hers
Though I know I messed up too bad
And I just have to accept that
I still wish you could call me “baby”
And talk to me until four in the morning
I let my pain out, though it is not fair
I brought this upon myself
And now my tears still show how much I care
Though we will never be the same
Because of me.
+57
You Said you would care
You Said you would be there
You Said I was your number one
You Said you’re done.
I feel like crying
I feel like dying
Why would you do that to me?
Why push me away?
You Said, “I promise.”
You Said, “I can’t do this.”
You Said, “Goodbye.”
I said, “Go die!”
3/28/11
+82
Don’t lay near me – I don’t want to lay with you no more….
Don’t come near me – I don’t want you to hurt me no more….
Don’t speak to me – I have nothing left to say no more….
Don’t be with me – I don’t want to be with you no more….
+171
You were the key to my heart
you were the ray of light in the dark
you were everything I needed in life.
It was easy loving you
But it’s hard forgetting you
I don’t remember feeling this empty
Don’t remember you being so angry
I thought we were always going to be together
Thought we were meant to be forever
My heart has been locked once again
Locked into a box just like back then
I couldn’t breathe without you
Couldn’t move without you
Couldn’t see without you
Couldn’t fall asleep without dreaming of you
But it’s time for me to move on
I will no longer be your pawn
Because our love has died,
Just let me say,
Goodbye.
