Its hard
0Its hard loving someone
who keeps ignoring you…
its hard missing someone
who never miss you…
its hard living the world
you never knew…
its hard when you love someone
who never loves you.
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0To love you again
+2I still remember those lovely talks
that i have done with you
those lovely nights that i spent
just thinking about you
I am alone now
but still don’t feel lonely
your love that you have forgotten now
Still makes me feel that i am yours only
sometime i got confused
whether i am cheating myself
By saying,i was in love with you
Because you have left me
as i was none for you..
But How can you forget
those days and nights..
when we have done love and
so many fights..
Now when i want to talk to you
just for some moments
then why you want to stay so quiet..
I must say
Loving someone like you is not so easy
It is really making me insane..
But still I want to meet you once
To love you again..
One Love
0Is there only one person for me?
The one that only i can see?
Is he the key to my heart?
Or just a guy playing a part
He’s my first love, but my only one
Is there only one love?
Are we meant for just one?
Why am I the only one, that asks?
Some days, it just seems to matter to me
To him, I never seem to know
He only shows it ever so often
But sometimes i need to know how truly he feels
To me, I feel like we’ve known each other forever
Is that why it feels like we’re far apart?
Not physically or emotionally but mentally
I need to know is he my only one.
You tell me you love me, but you never show it
Hugs and little kisses is all i see
Not someone who wants to spend eternity with me.
Are you my only one? Soon we will find out
Now my answer to only one love is not done
It still needs to be figured out
But sooner or later i know in my heart that one day
My one and only one love will appear to me
Pain In love
0I inhale from this joint
you look at me and point
I say it takes it all away
It keeps the pain at bay
You look upon me disgusted
You say It was me you once trusted
I tell you it will all be ok
Now you just want me to go away
I try to hide this pain I have deep inside
It’s hard to do without someone by my side
My heart aches for someone to love
Sitting here doubting there is someone watching from above
My red eyes red
Making me unable to move from this bed
I hope you all will someday know why
I am just waiting to die
The drugs to my heart are setting in
As I write all this down with this pen
I live a lonely life
One with little strife
To the girl I love but does not love me back
I hope you know that I would die for you
As I lay here and cry for you
I wish I knew one thing
Why are you doing this to me.
As I lay here and cry
I’m waiting to die.
I was alone
+1All i did was say
everything i had for her
it surely wasn’t a mistake
then why did it hurt
she was gone
i was alone
was left with nothing
only memories
which hurt and kill
everyday became a burden
forgot to smile
never laughed again
had to ask myself
whats down upon me !!
Its not everyday
that you meet someone special
the cruel world it is
has its own beauty
and i knew she was one
as long as i was with her
she had my world go round
i was the invincible one
seemed i had everything
cared with all for her
just to be with her
but in the end
it was not to be
she was gone
and i was alone.
FALLEN
0I look around everywhere
To find that I am the only one
In darkness I feel left always
Feeling that they’re my light
Feelings that are pain
but they’re soothing like used to
It’s like addicted to what you don’t want but need
If you know what I mean
Don’t have to be another me to feel
Just have to be in me
I am fallen
Bring me back from this fall
Shake me before too late
Stand beside before too wrong
Wake me before I am gone
Fallen, indeed I am
Hurt deep inside
Can’t get up like before falling so hard
That everything is fallen so “heartlessly”
Sinking deep down under the dark sky
Crawling with numbness in addiction
There is everybody but no anybody
Like only you to see tears in your eyes
Falling & fallen
It’s the fallen me
I am living
If living has nothing to do with being alive for you
Feelings & emotions are burnt & tears have dried
Everything’s numb like stone
Only that stones can’t feel the pain of numbness
Everything’s faded & fallen
World’s dark, life’s painful
Soul’s blown, heart’s broken
Soul’s breathing & heart’s beating
Another human heart just like you
I am fallen
Bring me back from this fall
Shake me before too late
Stand beside before too wrong
Wake me before I am gone.
Why
0When i met you, i was blessed
Then you begun to hurt me though you dont see
My fragile heart you shuttered apart
Why my eyes cried when where apart.
You said, you cared
And that you won’t leave
Though your with me it feels your away
Why you must hurt me this way
My air is you
Body and Soul i gave to you
But thing’s you change
Why you kill me this way
Someday i will let go
I will one day no longer know you
My heart will heal too
Why am still hurting over you.
Pain
+1Why it has to be me
You can’t see that you hurt me
No matter what I do never enough for you
You made my heart really died
You made me believe that am for you
You made me want you
But your showing me a different you
You had made me trust you
Pain I feel kill’s me
Can’t you just go
Let me be alone that I want to be
For you no longer for me
You charmed me and let me cry
I never though it will be
Sad thing’s you had said
Please just leave me and let my feelings die too
Sorry if I had loved you so
I have been so blind, I never saw the real you
I made mistakes, yes i admit
Mistakes of loving you coz you never been true.
I Can’t Let You Go
0I loved you;
so much, it even hurt.
I never dreamed you would do,
what you did do.
We were engaged,
meant to be,
together forever,
if only, if only I could see.
I’ve tried so hard;
and realized, I can’t let you go.
With all my strength and courage;
it’s still hard to get to my feet.
Now you’re back, wanting me;
asking for me.
A thousand questions in my head;
Why? Can I trust him? Can he have me?
I know these questions are foolish.
For I already know the answers.
No matter what you did, you will have me.
‘Cause, I can’t let you go.
She still loves him
0She walks down the street with tears in her eyes,
He’ll never know what it feels like,
That heart breaking guy,
And she wonders and wonders why,
She just cant seem to say goodbye,
She still loves him,
But honestly, its not worth it, to try.
So she stands atop a stool,
Under a tree, next to her pool,
The rope that hangs could be evidence,
To this poor girl, people have been cruel,
And she takes a big leap,
And weeps and weeps,
But now she is silent,
This poor girl, is asleep.
Words without Meaning!
-1I gave you EVERYTHING
& what you did… NOTHING!
i prove to you that my love was true
THAT WAS THE BIGGEST MISTAKE I EVER MADE!
it prove to you i was weak!!
because of that, it made you s-t-r-o-n-g-e-r
you told me the most “sweetest” “nicest”
most loving things i ever heard.
but i should have known from the beginning…
they were just words with out MEANING!!
..ONE year & almost half..
& this is what it end up to be
who would have ever thought that the HOTTEST love,
would have the COLDEST END!!
Please come back, please come back…
+1I miss you like crazy
When I think about past moments with you
I get dizzy
I wish you were still here with me
Sitting at the park with you under a tree
You gave me no reason to why you left me
Every night broken dreams
Listen baby
If you never loved me
Why did you say yes to me
Sleepless times is what I like
Because your in my mind
Its like I’m in flight
I ain’t gonna stop the fight
For your love
Because your all I got.
Injury of Heart and Mind
0I weep for you day and night
my sleep is restless
you’re always on my mind
to stop thinking about you
is like committing a crime
death may help in due time
if I died now would you feel pain?
or would I be an old thought
one that you lost and then reclaimed?
I FOUND MYSELF IN LOVE WITH YOU
+1You make me smile every time I frown.
You make me tough and never let me down.
You are my friend and you’re my companion.
You’re the one who gives me inspiration.
I began to notice I’m feeling strange.
I began to notice that I have changed.
I’m missing you whenever you’re not near.
Your sweet voice I always wanted to hear.
I found myself caring dearly for you.
I found myself wanting to be near you.
I guess I am just used being with you.
But worst, I think I am falling for you.
I don’t know how this feeling had started.
I don’t know if this is what I wanted.
I’m trying so hard just to control it.
I’m really trying to forget about it.
I know friends is what we could ever be
And I know this is too painful for me.
If by any chance it could be you and me,
I will wait for that day. Just let it be.
My Weeping Eyes
0To the world im coping,
but in my heart i weep,
sometimes i awake and your not there,
even tho your probably very near,
i love you as much as you love me ,
even deeper than the deepest sea,
i know your up there smiling,
but for me the sadness is pulling,
sometimes i think of you in silent prayer,
as i write this on the paper lays a tear,
each day i miss you more and more,
i miss the laughter and tear we shared,
shouting at each other with no care,
even tho we fraught sometimes,
your memories will always shine,
but when tomorrow starts without you,
and you are not there to see,
i will remember that the angels took you by your hand ,
and whispered your name, but as the years go on
i there will always be so many tears,
i love you dearly
you know that clearly.
You’ll Never Know
0I want you to know
but it won’t happen
cause you’ll never know
not knowing how deeply i’m hurt
just simply because of you
I want us to have a “thing”
but i know the truth
it won’t be real
it will always be a fantasy
wanting to be closer to you
is more than wanna be apart from you
This isn’t easy for me
if you think i’m gonna forget that day
not even a chance
i won’t forget till my last breath
if you think this is easy
hmm..let me tell you
this is hard for me
there no meaning of life without you
but i guess you’ll never knew.
Hopeless love
0Every time I see you,
I can barely talk,
I can hardly breathe,
To me it feels like
you are the only one in the world
I could ever love,
But to you I am just another girl
that has fallen for you.
BLEACHERS
-1I am here alone in my room
Thinking those times that we’d met before
It starts in the bleachers, that so memorable
And you are just a friend that I’d fall for
Every time I seat in the bleachers
I always remember our bonding together
I feel so happy when I am seating there
Wishing that someday we will be together
I know that you love someone
But my feelings for you will never gone
I still waiting that you love me too
Though it hurts for me to know that you won’t do
I’ve tried to overcome the pain
Wishing this pain will fade away soon
Control the tears from my eyes
Nothing to blame but this foolish heart of mine
You broke my heart and torn it apart
I’m tired of everything
Tired of hoping that you feel the same way
But sad to say it end hopelessly.
Forbidden Love
0She stands in the frame of the door;
Looking for him, looking for more.
She watches the rain, her eyes well with tears
She wonders, worries, waits and fears
She dreads his return home
But she wants him so she’s not alone
I hope these bruises heal very soon;
She whispers to the glistening moon
The cuts, he cut, cut more than skin
They cut down deep; her heart within.
She can’t live without this forbidden love
So she looks up to the heavens above.
Love, Loss, Lesson Learned
0I have loved and lost,
I have fallen hard.
I have decided,
It’s time that I settle my score.
I will not be bitter,
though I will want to for a while.
I will not regret,
that which once made me smile.
I will learn from my pain,
time after time.
Each lesson I’ve learned,
has made me stronger inside.
The strength of each love,
the burn of it’s flame,
the heat it emits,
means that much more pain.
A heart can be broken,
each time…repaired,
each time more fragile,
to be handled with greater care.
Upon it’s last fall,
it will yet again break,
not just into little pieces…
it will in incinerate.
At this point, as you know,
a body can not survive
without a heart and
without a soul.
So tonight, as I said,
I am here to settle my score,
Learning from the love
I had once before.
No More Will I Fall In Love,
for Falling Only Hurts,
My heart has been broken,
It has been crushed and burned.
So here is my heart,
this is all that is left.
I must now become the phoenix
and rise from the ash.
I will walk into love,
Slowly at first,
After all….
This Is My Re-Birth!
As I learn to fly,
There will be highs and lows,
But I will spread my wings…
And I will be Free…
Finally!