Tears
+42There’s always tears in my eyes
I sometimes want to break down and cry
But I have to pretend everything is fine
I’m strong, nothing’s wrong.
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+42The Day After Goodbye
+12As I lie here wrapped up in this blanket,
All I can think about is you.
My friends are all here and think I’ll make it
But all these tears are eating away the blue.
Sky is grey and rain is pouring,
As I sit her in this bitter sweet mourning.
Pretty Girl
+49Pretty girl with gray eyes
Heart full of hurt all based on lies
She lays awake at night
Trying not to cry
But the tears steady flow
As she runs to the door
Trying to escape a world
Of hate, pain and lies
Wanting and demanding what
They can never have
“Leave me alone”
She wants to shout
But nothing came out
Just a blank look
As they scream and shout
Trapped
+33Trapped I am,
Trapped I’ll be.
The pain I feel,
You’ll never see.
From wall to wall, ceiling to floor,
There are no windows, there are no doors.
I scream, I cry
I fall, I die.
I hurt no more, I open my eyes
Someone, something, had heard my cries.
Then the world goes dark and I feel my pain,
I won’t be trapped! No not again!
I fall once more into my nightmare,
Trapped I am now, and will forever stay there.
The Fear
+9Why am I sitting here,
wishing you were here.
Don’t you know I’d die the same,
if it would’ve taken away your pain.
Six whole years today,
since you’ve gone away.
Love is my only fear,
cause I’ve seen how fast it can disappear.
The drugs never take away,
the misery of your face.
I wish I could take back time,
so our relationship could have climbed.
My father the only regret I have,
is telling you I hate you the day that you died.
Because of You
+12Because of you I’m sad.
Because of you I’m strong.
Because of I feel like there is no where, where I truly belong.
You did this to me then and it still haunts me now
Everyday I wake up and remember every foul.
These thoughts will always stay; never will they go.
I will live on, but my self I will not show.
The Lost Soul
+11My poor little sister, All little in pain
Please don’t let go, Hang on tight
Don’t worry, I’m here, No need to
be afraid, You’re safe in my arms,
No need for goodbyes, Just hang on tight
My sweet little sister
Invisible
+24I feel alone in this world, no one understands me,
I’m on the edge, I’m about to jump, can’t anyone see?
I’m invisible to this world, and everyone in it,
All I am is a tiny little speck on a big huge planet,
My only friend in this world is the darkness of night,
It’s only here for awhile, but it makes things alright,
My friends and my family have all gone away,
They pretended to help, but they wouldn’t stay,
They said that they’d help me, they said that they’d be there,
But in the end, when I really needed them, they didn’t care,
They told me they’ve tried, but they’ve given up on me now,
They left me alone to figure life out some how,
I don’t trust my self to do what is right,
But then comes darkness again, everything will be alright,
Darkness is not happy, but it’s better than light,
It shows me the truth of my everyday life,
It asks me the question of why I’m still here,
But deep in my heart, the answers not clear,
Why am I still here, when my life is nothing but pain,
The darkness, it tells me, I have nothing to gain,
I don’t know when, but the day will come,
When I leave, and say, goodbye to everyone,
The day will be sad, but it wont last long,
People will go on living as if nothing was wrong,
But nothing was wrong, because i was never really there,
Same as before, all I’ll be is a whisper in the air.
Flickering Light
+4Emotions high, the mind of a jetsetter,
I close my eyes and allow myself be lost in my agonizing thoughts.
I am taken to a place where my fallacious nightmares are in fact my reality.
A place where my suffering and affliction are so raw, so fresh they cease to fade away.
A deep breath takes me to a place of tranquility and harmony.
For just a split second I am freed from these dreary memories.
For just a split second my heart is no longer suffocated by these weakening facts.
For just a split second my mind is no longer clouded with these painful repetitive images. Slowly losing the control I have to stay in this bliss I desperately crave,
I am cast back into the inferno I briefly escaped.
What has become of me? I am lost, just lost.
Like a roaming spirit waiting to move on.
I am trapped in my own personal purgatory.
No one can save me.
Not even you.
I no longer have an identity, no beaming life.
I wait, wait anxiously to escape again for just a second.
I eagerly wait for someone to put out my unstable burning flame like the flickering light that I am.
Goodbye
+123Pain begins to grow inside,
my already broken heart.
Salty tears can no longer hide,
as my insides rip apart.
My heart pounds madly in my chest,
tears still sting my eyes.
My mind seems it will never rest,
I doubt it even tries.
I watch the blade glint in the light,
and my terror goes away.
My mind desperately tries to fight,
but the urge is here to stay.
I long to see my blood flow,
as the razor slices skin.
I’d like to watch all this pain go,
and see my troubles end.
My heart beats even faster now,
as the cold blade touches skin.
I cannot even picture how,
my life came to an end.
Yet my choice is already made,
as my blood begins to spill.
I close my eyes and drag the blade,
it seems against my will.
I smile and lay back on the bed,
and very deeply sigh.
And every thought entered clears my head,
as I whisper my last goodbye.
All I Do
+12I need him like…
the homeless needs a shelter.
I’m feeling him…like
He’s under my skin.
I cherish him like…
I’m so sentimental.
I cry over him like…
he is that important.
I fend for him like…
like he is my responsibility.
This whole poem…is “I”
Pondering at the simple fact like..
what does he do?
That question goes unanswered like…
it’s pleading the 5th.
Hmmm…
only if this wasn’t just a poem…
the confirmed fact is that this is a true situation.
so congrats…because i just stated my emancipation
Unknown
+10I am tired and weak, crippled and mourned
I can not take the pressure upon me much more
My body is alive but my heart is torn
It lives as a half without a part of its own
The exhaustion of the pain that can no longer be cured
Causes It to grieve for attention that is never to be heard.
The beats and the thumps of the groaning sounds is the only possible way for the half to be found.
Broken, shattered into thousands of pieces
Damaged the situation but excited the deceives
In a family of five they never took the time
To realize what was happening to the poor girl inside.
Behind her innocent eyes that were filled with only lies
Was a key that unlocked the mystery guide
The key lead to a place that had never been discovered
Just like herself when she heard a thump that relieved not only her, but also one other.
Lost Love
+18My dear sweet love
why have you gone?
I see you there,
but not for long.
My heart cries out for only you
I need my friend,
my lover too…
what happened to you?
You’re never there,
you look away
but I still stare.
Sitting here now wondering why,
you left me so empty, used up, and dry.
My life is in pieces
my heart is too,
why didn’t God pick me for you…
Sunrise
+17The warmth and beauty of sunrise
Reminds me of your disguise
To these chocking words that I concede
Confused if goodbye is what I need
Every time I think of this each sleepless night
Makes me loose my sense of wrong and right
Even though I try so hard darling
I always end up in my suffocating room crying
How could a plain and simple girl like you
Makes me fall in love so deep
How could everything you do
Makes it so hard for me to breathe
I should have known this wasn’t real
And let you know the pain I feel
Was it a mistake to make you my star
‘Cause I ended up tending these undying scars
I wanna throw away this life I led
And be asleep forever on my bed
For I am nothing but a mess of a dreamer
With the nerve to miss your voice so tender
Gazing back to the beauty of the sunrise
Where there, my past hope lies
Waiting for another life reason to rise
Wanting to find another meaning of that sunrise
Why Can’t I
+13Why can’t I just be a bird
That reaches up to the sky
Looking down to all the views
And always free to fly.
Why can’t I just be the sun
That warms the summer day
Giving light to all of us
Even on gray winter’s day
Why can’t I just be a tree
That bestows us pleasant shade
Bequeathing fruits or lovely flowers
That never seemed to fade
Why can’t I just be a baby
Who’s as innocent as can be
Bereft of anguish, problems and anxiety
Like the one you gave to me
Why can’t I stop missing you
Why can’t I end up longing for you
Why can’t I cease myself to cry
Why can’t I just say goodbye
Stuck in the water log
+6I am stuck in the water log
lost and tired
still in pain
and cant move on
waters growing
I just can’t breathe
suffocating and bored
is all i feel
Pull me out
I am in fear
I can’t cry
but still in tears
blood stains all over i cant escape
trying to regret
for all my mistakes
shouldn’t have come here
to get the curse
I wish i could survive
just for some while
to pray to the God
who i had forgot
I’m scared
+78I’m scared that you might leave me all by myself.
I’m scared you might desert me for someone else.
I’m scared my love won’t be enough.
That’s why I’m trying to be tough.
There’s a distant look in your eyes that you try so hard to hide.
I feel like we’re growing apart and it’s breaking my heart.
There’s just nothing I can do to stop this pain.
That’s slowly driving me insane.
But all the pain comes to an end when you tell me you want to just be friends.
My life is like a rose
+15Rose
My life is like a rose
Each petal is a special part that makes up a picture.
Every petal that falls is something that can not be forgotten.
Every few years a petal is lost.
Soon the rose will be bare,
No petals to show its beauty.
Its stem brown
Its nectar dry
This rose shall die.
No one will forget those petals,
That have gone brown & brittle.
One day another rose will bloom
Till then I am just a rose, a dark, dead
Rose.
Liberian Peter
+5No one asks where I am from.
I must be from a place where no one likes to come.
I have always checked these books in and out.
Peter you’re a loser with out a doubt.
No one knows that I exist.
I host the fiesta of the non fiction list.
Putting books in ABC order.
Bossing them around like they were my daughters.
My peace and quiet is always lost.
When people complain how much a book cost.
What they say must be true.
I have no life and nothing to do.
No one knows I will commit suicide today.
Hopefully the books will see it my way.
Carrying on to find a new reader.
But none better than the Liberian Peter.
I tried…
+34Every night I go to bed
Thinking of all that’s done and said
If I had just one wish to get back the lost part of me
I’d take you back in time and make you see
I’m not what you’re mistaking me to be
You and me together is all I wanna see
Baby, I know you don’t wanna hear
But all I do right now is swear
That I never meant to hurt you
Never to see you cry
How is it that you don’t see
How much i try…