+3
And I’m married to a disease that won’t leave us at ease
It’s just a problem left inside my head
If it wasn’t there, you’d be instead.
I go by his word; directing things aimlessly
Doctors told mommy they don’t know what’s wrong
Other kids at school call me a freak
She used to tell me that I just need to be strong
But it’s hard for her to speak since daddy beat her weak
I visit mommy everyday, she always tells me to be strong
Doctors suck the blood from every vein in me,
Daddy beats every breath out of the rest
The voice in my head tells me to believe mommy
And mommy tells me to be brave
Doctors tell daddy I’m worthless
Daddy listens, daddy tells me to shut up
I beg daddy on my knees, don’t let me end up like
Mommy please; daddy doesn’t care, daddy does what
He wants; daddy drove me to somewhere dark;
Then he buried me on top of mommies’ decease
+4
It breaks my heart
When I see you cry,
And it doesn’t get easier
As the days go by…
Watching the sadness fall
From your eyes as tears,
A slow and constant release
Of pain from the past years.
They say that tears
Are like silent words,
A puzzling explanation
For the sadness that occurs.
But most of the time
There are no ways,
To find the words
To describe those days.
Because behind those tears
There’s always a history,
A somewhat painful
And hard to tell story.
This sadness in your eyes
From what I can see,
Needs to be released
In order to let you be…
+1
Everything was different before,
But now, I can’t take it anymore,
Following the light, leading to a door
Which is nothing but imagination’s core.
I remember the optimism of the past
But now it just flew away, cast
Into the black hole where it shall last,
Since time’s rate will always remain fast.
Innocence was king those days,
And I, thinking that forever it stays
With all its shapes and its ways,
Was mistaken, humanity’s sorrow pays.
Sadly, those days now come to an end,
And easily, I can perceive the trend
Because life on earth can never bend
Time’s flow, and its way to mend.
0
Coming one last time in my hands…
My love for you, strong as a tower stands
Unshaken, for infinity stays,
But you left saying: “Love has its ways.”
These ways shattered my heart away,
Blown next to you, where it will always stay.
You love her, that’s what I’ve been told,
And I, without you, In sunlight, I feel cold.
My body is shivering, coldness filled my core…
This is hard to handle, I can’t go on anymore.
Don’t you feel it in the deepness of your soul,
A little piece, scattered away, a little hole?
Well…
I do!
+1
How come my tears just like a rain?
Flows through my face with deep pain,
Seems my heart melts on a chain
And like a running falls that never end.
I heard a noise comes from rainy drops
Where felled over on a chimney top
Beyond my mind I silent stop
Should I refuse that I felt bad?
If there’s sunshine after rain
Will my heart bless with so much gain?
And for all I know that I never see
A deep feelings in my heart that can never be free
Thunder trials that everyone thump
Would you be a steel to cover me up?
And make a choice to live in half?
For your half might be the last.
A wind flashed through my innocent vain
Thinking of you would be a flame
And I guess it would be the end
Reaching for drops of rain.
+4
I wish I was free,
As Free as a bird.
Do not say anything,
Not even a word.
Even if you want me,
I cannot oblige,
Until you have seen,
My life through my eyes!
+9
Blue is the pain
you see in her eyes
orange is his car
you see drive away
clear is the tears
that slide down her face
black is the ink
on the note she leaves
white is the tub
you see filled with water
silver is the razor
you see in her hand
red is the blood
you see in the water
love is the slowest form of suicide…
+6
When I look in the mirror I see failure
Failure to be who I really am
I confine myself into a neat little shell
A shell in which I am to scared to break
I keep a wall around my heart
I have chains that bind my voice
And I keep a lock around my thought
I wish I could be unscared
I wish I could be me
But if people saw me for who I really am
Would they reject me?
+6
Your face,your eyes, your hair, your smile
just makes me melt to the ground
I still look back on these two days hoping
someday our eyes will meet, like the other day
All my memories they will never fade I will always have your picture in my head
All of these words that we have said, all of these smiles that we have shed,
just seems Like I saw you yesterday
I m still waiting for that day to come, still waiting to see you again,
still waiting to hold your hand and hear your voice again
I’m still counting down the days
but what if someday we’ll meet and just stare blank at our feet
with no words to come out loud
will just loose our only chance
And all we’ll have is the memory from the past
+3
I remember a time when I couldn’t wait for valentines Day.
The love I felt for that special person,
I could not wait,
to tell her how much she meant.
I would even leave work early that day ,
just to make sure I got the perfect bouquet.
I would search the whole town, till I found just the right piece
to complete her Valentines wish.
Over the years, not exactly sure where it was lost, Valentines Day just isn’t the same.
We don’t make it a priority to go out of our way to wish that special person a happy Valentines Day.
+3
In my younger days, life was pink,
But these days my hope can only sink.
My eyes ran out as a pen of ink
Making my memories unbury to think.
I think…
In my younger days, happiness was aflow,
But these days, into sadness will it grow.
My deepest grudges all get into a row
In my head. I don’t want them to show.
I show…
In my younger days, all was in symmetry,
But these days, all’s in a cemetery.
Everyone seems to be so free,
Do you think it’s because I show no sympathy?
No sympathy…
I think I show No sympathy
+2
How many times do I need to score to make you happy?
How many times do I make myself cry so you will notice me?
How many times do I change my clothes to look pretty for you?
How many times should I cry myself to sleep because I can’t get you off my mind?
Why don’t you hear me, see me, love me the way you did?
How many times will you hurt me before I realize my fear has overcome my love for you?
+5
Darkened by hatred.
Fragile as my heart.
Hidden from you.
Now I fall apart.
Can’t find my light.
You can’t see me cry.
Its only cos of you,
that I want to die.
Life was a game
Its all gonna cost.
What i couldn’t realize,
is now that I lost.
Its my fault for whats happened today.
I spread my wings and fly away…
+2
When I first saw you, my clock stop
Feels like dancing melody that beat me fast
Every time I looked into your face
I saw an angle that kissed my tears away
And even my fears would seem okay.
I imagine you and me will be together
For a second or minute that I pray would last forever
All I want is simply to be with you
And share the laughter that makes me complete and knew
One day you saw me cry
You comfort and hug me tight
And that moment even my heart can’t deny
That you teach me to be desire
As every season goes by and by….
I Feel that you’ve been apart of it
And it would be so hard for me to receive
That one day you’re lost by my side
And take the half of my love.
+5
Fighting my tears,
As well as my fears,
Tired of letting you all get to me,
Why can’t you just let me be?,
I am doing nothing for you anyway,
I’m just just going to hurt you in the end,
So why can’t I fight this urge?,
It worked before,
But this urge is harder to ignore,
If today is my last day,
I will only regret yesterday.
+3
As I Sleep Alone At Night,
I Wish I Was With You,
I Wish You Were Here With Me,
I Wish You Could Truly Be Mine Its Alright.
You Are Mine My One And Only,
As I Sleep Alone At Night,
I Wonder Where You Are,
What You Are Doing And Who With,
I Wish I Was The One That You Care For
But You Care For Her.
And You Will Never Feel The Same Way About Me
As You Do For Her.
+4
People say to forgive and forget
but i don’t know how to let go of my regret
I really hope you see
all the pain that you caused me
And if you ever see me at school
just go on and act big & cool
and show every friend
that i don’t matter in the end
now back to that regret
I don’t know how to forgive and forget
+76
When I heard the news I fell to my knees
My best friend Just passed away
why did he have to go?
Can I turn back the clock and wish it never happened?
Or do i have to suffer the pain?
Can i wish to see him one more time?
Or just remember the good times we had?
+2
Old man lies in bed
thinking about the past
Old man sits in bed
wondering where it all went wrong
Old man looks outside
watching the world go by
Old man cries himself to sleep
because he is all alone
Old man lifts his cup
struggling to take a sip
Old man drops his cup
Old man has gone
+1
Sorry for all the times that I was distant,
Its just I’m scared my family will be non-existent,
The partings come and go so fast,
I’m loosing all my precious past.
My memories now have crashed and burned,
And all my closest people have turned,
But why would you leave someone you loved?,
Bleeding to the kids like a sick dove.
No regrets, no remorse,
Just ‘sign the papers’, and a silent divorce,
Once upon a time, they were that knight and princess,
Makes me wonder what is this whole mess.
Maybe it was me who had parted,
And the reason the people darted,
I just wish upon the wise moons,
To regain a figure that will heal my wounds.
‘Return of the knight’, I quote,
Why cant this happen I note,
Wishing for the same memories,
But to forget all those enemies.
