It feels like the longer it is the more I hurt, finally cried more than I ever had one month after he had left me. I know I loved him because I shut down completely. I tried to become a different person and shut everything I knew, everything I was. To forget him. It worked, till I couldn’t hold the walls up anymore. Now I just compare anyone to him and can’t be satisfied.
I loved him so much he became my life. I’m not even sure I have a real life anymore, everything is upside down and twisted.