It’s hard to hold on to something that you know would never be yours in any way you think of, you just have to learn to let go and face the fact that while good things never last…some don’t even start..
Sometimes memories are better forgotten.
Sometimes they’re not, but over time you seem to lose them.
But sometimes, even though some memoris are too hard to even bear, you want to hold on to the BAD and the GOOD memories.
cause in the end, you realize there was a reason for all that misery, that it resulted in happiness.
Leaving you was probably the hardest thing I had to do. I made this decision, with listening to my brain, not my heart. Because my heart could never take that.
I left you, without thinking about what is going to happen. I left you without thinking about giving you another chance, because I knew it would be in vain. Falling in love with you, was the best thing that ever happened to me, but somehow, it became the worst. I don’t know what I feel right now, is it regret? Pain? I don’t know. All I know, is that, no matter what you did to me. Leaving you created a great emptiness. That none could ever fill.
I miss you.
One day I’ll get over you, my tears will stop falling, putting on a smile will be easier and more real. I’ll stop doubting myself and I’ll stop trying to make up excuses for me and your mistakes. I’ll be able to laugh again. I’ll be able to walk by you with my head held high with no shame. I won’t have to avoid seeing you or hate the person you are currently with. I’ll be able to feel beautiful again and I won’t hate you anymore. I won’t hate myself anymore and I won’t regret being with you, because being with you taught me things that I never would have learned without you. I will realize how strong I am and I will move on. You won’t be forgotten because apparently you were my first love, but I won’t want you anymore and your name will be easier to say. One day I will let you go and I’ll move on.