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My life has been hard,
and all my burdens great.
But I regret none of my choices,
I’ve made my own fate.
So take a look at my life,
and judge as you will.
God watches over me,
and cares for me still.
He blessed me with a child,
straight from heaven above.
With a spirit like an angel,
he fills my life with happiness and Love!
But jealously has created the harlots three,
The sloth, the addict, and the liar they be.
Pale skin hides they’re sullied souls,
with bodies like hags faces like ghouls!
Disguised as a friend the first did come,
the slovenly, the cruel, the downright scum!
A mans young life the second did take,
this foul addict, this thief, this snake!
Casting her foul shadow onto our lives,
the last one came using lies like knives!
But they harm only themselves’
with every evil stone they cast.
My foundations laid in brick,
and I have built it to last!
In the end it will be a simple mirror they face,
and see their lives empty, no honor or grace!
They never admit they’re own guilt you see,
but lie as they might they will NEVER be me!
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Do you wonder when you’re hurting
If it’s really all worthwhile
All that loving, caring, sharing
Just hoping for a little smile.
When you watch a loved one suffer
In constant pain, confusion too
Thinking back to all the good times
Knowing there’s nothing you can do.
Perhaps it’s better like a snail
To build a rock hard shell
To keep the pain and suffering out
But no, for we should tell
Our dear ones how we feel
To show we love and care
And even when they sometimes suffer
They know, for them you’re always there.
For if the clocks could turn back time
To good old days gone by
Wouldn’t life be so much better
No wonder we feel we want to cry.
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I had you once,
And I let you go.
Times were tough,
I said lets just move on.
I wanted to know,
If you cared enough about me.
To say don’t let me go,
Let’s get past this and be.
To tell me everything’s fine,
That they will get better.
I can’t get you off my mind.
So to let you know I wrote this letter.
So many words were said,
I listened to them all.
As I laid in my bed,
That’s when things started to fall.
I stayed up late at night,
Thinking about you.
You told me it’ll be alright,
And I believed you too.
Things began to get worse,
We started to fall.
I didn’t know what to do,
Or who to listen to after all.
I ended things,
After only a short time.
It happened so fast,
An now im so confused.
I hate that things ended,
I still want to be with you.
Maybe in time,
You’ll want me too.
I now realize,
Listening to people was wrong.
If things work out,
Then maybe we do belong.
If not then,
That’s fine too.
I hope we can still remain friends,
Hopefully things don’t change.
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Music take me away
Some other place, some other day
Help me find a way
For once to just be okay
Play the notes I need to hear
Bringing death oh so near
Don’t even bother to shed a tear
I know you wont think of missing me dear
Sing me your song so soft and light
It brings me comfort as I die this night
Let me go, do not fight
I’ll disappear like, in the sky, a kite
I hope the music will take you away
Maybe back to the old days
Help you hold on and find a way
Than maybe you too will be okay
I’ll play the notes you need to hear
But I’m playing them to keep death at bay and me near
Even though you have not, I will cry tears
I miss you so very much dear
Singing you your song so dark yet light
Maybe it will bring you comfort as I leave you tonight
I have lost you, lost this fight
Please let me go; you cant hold on to a flying away kite .
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I will never forget the day my dad came to my front door
he told me the bad news so I didn’t want to live anymore
Walked outside greeted by a man in his blues
then I started to believe that this was real news
I guess I took you for granted and was expecting you to come home
now I know how it feels to be so alone
The next few weeks dragged on and on
I still can’t believe that you’re really gone
I watched your coffin being carried off the plane
and we all knew that life wouldn’t be the same again
Then came the day you were layed to rest
and everyone spoke about how you were the best
That night a lot of eyebrows were shaved
It’s exactly the way you would have behaved!
Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you
And im still struggling to believe that this is all true
At least you can look after our little sister
And let her know that we all miss her.
Rest in Peace Bro
Love you so much .
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You pretended to show you loved me,
Pretended to show you cared,
no shoulder to cry on,
No one to be there,
Love is something godly a parent can show,
shall you love me?
Its not an emotion,
only a scene.
Love is something only a father can sow,
so dad,
show me you love me,
pretend you care,
But when you need me,
i will not be there.
ditch me,
leave me.
Never gona let,
you see me like this writing,
i dont need regret!
I dream,
I sit,
Thinking of dad.
I dream,
I sit,
I think,
never gonna let him make me sad.
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Far away in the corner, away from ones sight
As the moon rises into the night,
Shadowed by the dark, silenced by the breeze
Tucked far beneath the branches of the flowing trees.
Huddled, cold and hungry she waits
Not knowing what” will be her fate,
She knows it’s a struggle to just stay alive
All she wants is to be happy, hopeful and thrive.
She whispers to god and waits in silence
For the answers she desperately seeks.
Slightly battered confined to a small space,
She knows she must find a safer place.
Till then she’ll stay…
Far away in a corner, away from ones sight
As the moon rises into the night.
Shadowed by the dark
Silenced by the breeze, she waits
And weeps….
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Why has sadness chosen to be mine, despite my effort to chase it away.
Why has it chosen to be the only one that cares despite my effort to make it far from me.
Why has it decided to always come to me from my source of joy and happiness.
Is it that i’m destined to be close to it or what?
What options do i have to take from? Or i’m i left with the only option of taking my life?
Someone should please tell me what to do before i get overpowered by my predicaments.
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Blind, deaf and dumb is a saying I use to describe you now.
Blind because you couldn’t see the pain it caused in my heart.
Blind because you failed to notice her feelings that tore us apart.
Deaf because you would never listen as I tried to explain.
Deaf only when it came to me and my pain.
Dumb for not working out what was happening in front of you.
Dumb for pushing the one away whose love for you was always true.
Hurt, broken and lost is a saying that’s used to describe me now.
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I want to feel your soft touch.
But now you hate me this much.
This is not a love story.
This is just a FANTASY.
Maybe this is the end.
But please don’t pretend.
I don’t want to hear your lies.
It kills me everytime I close my eyes.
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My life so dramatic,
so hard to explain.
All the pain i go through,
on a day to day base.
If only you knew me,
you would understand.
That i dont need someone,
to lend me a hand.
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I left you with nothing,
Our thoughts are hazing.
I left you sleeping,
And now you’re waiting.
This never ending dream,
Is going downstream.
My heart is pierced by devil’s nails.
Riding on a stream of dragon scales,
Again my mind impales my soul,
Throwing me into this hellhole.
I can’t get you out of my head.
Maybe I’d be better of dead.
All the things I never said,
Left me as I bled.
In this hell of angel’s blades.
Where my hope always fades.
What they do persuades,
The fate of time.
Turns back all their crime.
Leaving my fate swinging on a dime.
Shadows whisper in my ear,
Telling me what I fear.
I am forced to suffer.
I’m locked up and getting number.
I’m breaking,
And all you’re doing is taking.
I can’t take this.
I can’t do this.
Please just leave me.
Don’t try to save me.
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There are times in my life
When i just want to cry
Just sit down relax
And look into the sky
Just wonder why
This happens to me .
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I am a broken heart
i wonder why this had to happen to me
i hear my sisters apologies and declinations
i see the torn shreds of my heart within my chest
i want to RUN
i am a broken heart
i pretend that its NOTHING
i feel that i am hurting my sister anyway
i touch the sharp edge of the knife
i worry whether she’ll EVER forgive me
i cry when know she will
i am a broken heart
i understand that she’d do ANYTHING for me
i say it doesn’t hurt me, seeing him love her
i dream of the times when life was EASY
i hope to mend what was torn
i am a broken heart.
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Oh how we miss you
As the years tick on bye,
Life without you mother
Brings tears to our eyes.
This week would be your birthday
Your not here for us to see,
It’s all in number
The special number 3
The 3/3/33
Was the yr that you were born,
But then you had to leave us
cos god called you to his home.
So come on Marie, Joan and Queenie
Irvin Doug and Uncle Donny,
Join in the fun and celebrate
With our mum, your sister Polly!
Happy Birthday mum!
We all Miss you all so much.
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Tears I cry
Pain I feel
I don’t want to die
But how do I deal
I live a lie
I hide my pain
Without this mask
Tears fall like rain
I try to cope
And keep on going
But I lose hope
And my heart needs sewing
I want to forget
God knows I try
But I just can’t
So I live this lie
I wear this mask
Every day
So that he won’t see
That I’m not ok
When it falls off
Then he sees
Underneath this mask
And looks at the real me
That’s when he knows
That I’m in pain
And that he’s the cause
Of all this rain
But I have to try
To keep moving on
He says it’s for the best
But now he’s gone
So on goes this mask
And on goes the pain
I know I’ll always live
In the pouring rain.
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It gently falls down
Then time will come
That it will be gone
Like the tears flowing in my eyes
It gently falls
It gently goes
The rain creates worries
Like my heart full of fears
My heart is full of pains
Like the weather when it rains
It gently falls
It gently goes….
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I thought you would be there for me.
There to hold my hand.
I made u my everything.
I made u my best friend.
but now your gone.
I’ve got nothing but an empty hand.
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The girl was sitting there,
All alone.
With no one to hold.
She cries for reasons she cannot explain.
She can’t tell anyone.
Without changing her fate.
I want to help her.
But she wont let me in.
She wont break down that wall for me to get in.
Little girl. Little girl.
I want to save you.
She opens the door..
And what I see, Is, Me.
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I lost so many friends and gained a few
But there’s one that I’ll never forget
That person was like family to me a real true friend
Till one day that person betrayed me
Its hard to believe someone so close to me
would ever want to do something like this
I trusted that person with everything
I was willing to die next to their side till the very end
Didn’t matter how bad life would get
that person was there through thick and thin
Yet somehow I was just used and betrayed
It still blows my mind that someone you call a real friend
someone you would consider family would do something like this
There really is no one to trust with your life
You can try and say you got my back
But its people like you i got to watch myself out for
Unless I want to be back stabbed and played the fool
I got a few close friends I can tell things
But not everything
I’ll never really trust anyone to the full extent
I’ll keep building walls as you keep trying to break them down
I’ll feed you lies making you think
That you and me have something special that we only share
Don’t really want to hear what you have to say
Don’t really care if you decided to leave today
I’m used to people walking out on me when I needed them the most
I”m used to hearing people say how their true and will always be there
When I need you the most somehow you disappear nowhere to be found
One thing I learned is the things I do, I do it for me
Not to impress anyone anymore
But to really satisfy my needs
Its sad that you were once my friend Now I don’t even know the person you are today
