+1
I was overwhelmed by the reality of it all.
His raspy voice yelling at me in such a way, I’ve never heard before
The intimidation of him was gone.
I was just as irate as he was.
I couldn’t believe that after all we have been through it ends like this
I was frivolous to him and he let me know it.
I crooned myself trying to find a way out of the pain.
But all I found was complete desolation.
I clenched my heart to try to find a way out of this massive black hole.
But the hole just grew larger day after day
I found myself in my room often, just sitting there idly.
My world was becoming iridescent,
colors changing from light shades of reds
and oranges to dark purples and blacks.
All I wanted was him ample amount of love.
Something that I will never have.
+2
IF I could make a wish,
I would be in your arms,
Every moment,hour and day,
In your presence,your warmth…..
If I could make a wish,
Your lovely eyes,your warm touch,
I want to wake up with you,
Every morning of my life……
If I could make a wish,
I would make you all mine,
Your starry eyes full of dreams,
Makes me come alive…….
If I could Make a wish,
Every time i open my eyes,
All I would like to see is,
Is you the love of my life…
+3
Mother, you will never know,
how much love I have in my heart below,
for you, being there for me,
as well as for my family.
Times were good and times were bad,
you were happy, you were sad.
And still you done for me anything
always protected me with a mothers wing.
You are someone words can not describe
and for eternal there will not be one alike.
I am thankful for every memory,
because nobody can ever take that away from me.
You raised me to be a good human
and mom, I am proud about who I am.
I love you mom – thank you so much,
for giving me all these years your special touch.
+8
When I was born, a candle was lit.
Mom, you are the candle that was lit,
and that continues to shine day and night
You are the light that continues to guide my path,
in the midst of the darkness that exists in this world.
When I am hungry, I look towards the lit candle,
When I am afraid I look towards the lit candle,
When I need guidance, I look towards the lit candle,
and when I need to hear those words “I Love You,”
I look towards the lit candle.
See this lit candle of mine, I know will never go out.
This light will continue to shine
when all other lights no longer exist.
Sometimes when I am alone,
or when the thought of day that my GOD will want this candle
To shine in his kingdom,
I look to heaven and give thanks up to him
For the blessing of this light.
When this light no longer exists in my presence,
it will continue to shine in my heart.
This candle light is not only external, but is also internal.
Mom, I embrace our love,
and I want to take this opportunity to say thank you!
Thank you for keeping me, when you could have given me away.
Thank you for loving me, just because I am your’s.
Mom, thank you for being My Candle Light.
+4
When I was a little girl, sitting on you knee
I never could imagine, the Mother you would be
As I grew, I realized how blessed my life would be
Because you are my Mother, it means the world to me
So,Eventhough I’m far away, and can’t be there today.
Always know you’re in my Heart Forever there to stay.
+11
There’s a girl who walks the scenic trail.
The one with the long ponytail.
The way it blows in the breeze.
Can bring a fellow to his knees.
She’s pure as sunshine.
Mellow as aged wine.
Mystical as a Hawaiian sunrise.
A beauty bouquet for the eyes.
+2
I never knew I didn’t exist before you
You looked into my eyes and saw the real me
never judging, always there
you saw what others could not see.
I was more myself with you than ever
How did you “get me” so fast
I dreamed you would be mine one day
Even though it wasn’t meant to last.
We lived a fantasy lie, you and I
Others left waiting for us to return
Anything to spend a few stolen moments together
Forever etched in my heart those memories burn.
But time was never on our side it seemed
In my dreams I still see your handsome face
Always living for those magical moments
I was forever lost in your embrace.
I miss your sweet kisses baby every minute of the day
and the way you used to hold me so tight
I wish we never had to end our love affair
But breaking someones heart can never be right.
+2
My pulse quickens,
My breath shortens,
My eyes are focused on my goal,
My goal is you.
I come closer,
You walk away.
I scream your name,
and you turn away.
What is it that made your love go away?
Did I push you away?
Or had it always been this way?
Was I just a game for you to play?
You tell me you love me,
then you walk away.
I don’t know whether to follow you or to stay away.
I don’t know why you don’t love me anymore,
so please tell me why.
-1
You are now in the past,
but now i am in the future.
On now what have began as ONCE UPON A TIME,
now ending as THE END.
On now what we used to be is now in the past
and now there is now need to cry.
Cause now i am facing the future on my own,
With my many questions to be answered.
+1
I WANT YOU AND I TO GROW OLD
I WANT YOU TO HOLD ME WHEN THE NIGHTS ARE COLD
I WANT YOU TO KISS ME GOOD NIGHT
I WANT YOU TO HOLD ME AND EVERYTHING SUDDENLY BE ALRIGHT
I WISH THAT I COULD SEE YOUR SMILE EVERY SINGLE DAY
I WISH THAT EVERYONE WHO EVEY HURT YOU WOULD PAY
I WISH I COULD CARRY YOUR SMILE IN MY HEART
I WISH WE WOULD NEVER GROW APART
I NEED TO FEEL YOUR LIPS ON MINE
I NEED FOR YOU TO GIVE ME A SIGN
I NEED YOU NEXT TO ME FOR AN ETERNITY
I NEED YOU TO A COMPANY ME ON THIS LONG JOURNEY.
+2
Dark cloud filled with tears
Waiting to cry over the earth
Cold chills of wind blow a faint fear
Watching, waiting, praying not to feel hurt
Silent tears drip down
Silver untouched before they hit the ground
Here comes the rain
Silently I listen to that soft beat it plays
Music that soothes the pain
Whispering to me “Hush, you’ll be okay”
Forgetting the pain
Courage is born
Needles of faith sow together what was torn
Pulling myself together
I know I’ll win this fight
Hugging past memories away
As I kiss my faith stitched heart goodnight
+3
Thank You –
For showing me what I really deserved; Which wasn’t you .
For telling me how much you loved me all the time, even if you were lying .
For showing me what people in this world are capable of doing to me .
For giving me a little bit of joy in my life .
For being there for me… in the beginning .
I Hate You –
For letting this go on for so long .
For making me love you .
For taking me away from people who would’ve actually loved me .
For wanting her more .
For getting my hopes up, then letting me down . Again . And again .
For telling me the same things you told all of them… and the same things you will tell her .
I’m Sorry –
For letting you know how i feel .
For anything i ever did to hurt you .
For not acknowledging any of the good things you did for me .
For hating you .
For loving you .
For praying that things won’t work out with you two .
For knowing all along that what happened to us wasn’t all your fault .
For letting our friendship go after all this time .
0
I believed you,
And now im hurt
Whatever did I do?
It felt like fate,
But, now im broken
You said “Forever,
Until the end”
Though now its over.
You had me fooled
S I gave you my all,
Because I thought, I was loved.
But then you watched me fall.
And im left with this pain.
I should have knew.
Now, forever ill suffer
All because of you.
+13
I know I hurt you.
Please forgive me,
I didn’t mean to.
Your heart was left to bleed
Your feelings were real.
But whats done is done.
I know how you feel,
I let you down,
I broke your heart
And I’m sorry.
0
Loss of sleep
Nothing interesting anymore
No one but myself to keep
What is there to live for?
So much mixed emotion
Feeling so alone here
Loosing all connection
Hopeing the end is near
Having not one friend
Living in my own head
Where is the end?
Myself wanting to be dead
Everyday going by so slow
Tired of living this lie
The same regular flow
Awaiting to die
Siting and wondering how?
Why am I so depressed?
Whats going to happen now?
All the weight of stress
The love I have for a person,
Do they have the same love for me?
+3
Life is never everything we want.
Depressive like rain,
Dropping whenever, stopping when done.
Followed by sunshine and energy.
Sometimes it’s good and helps
Others it comes and leaves damage,
A big flood and/or little puddles.
Can be permenate or healing in time.
It’s memory making and worth it;s doing
Life sometimes is soft and warm,
But others,
Hard and cold.
-1
Feeling so betrayed
Excited over the lie they told
Later finding out I was played
To them, my heart is cold.
It’s not easy to forget
At first feeling sad
Why did they do it?
Now feeling mad
Wondering if they feel regret
Hoping they feel sorry
For giving me this pain
Unforgettable, Unforgivable Pain.
+9
I know what i’ve done is wrong.
I know i can’t change the past.
I know you don’t trust me.
I wish nothing had happened.
I wish I could change my mistakes.
I wish you would trust me again.
I hope nothing happens anymore.
I hope the past can be forgotten.
I hope you can trust me again soon.
I want it to never happen again.
I want to change my past.
I want you to trust me more.
For it all, I say “im sorry.”
Now all I can do is….
Know, Wish, Hope, Want
And wait.
+1
These four walls hold me in,
sending my brain on a spazztastic whim.
Sometimes the pain never seems to end,
so i bring on the blade,
sometimes my only friend.
I hate the people who love me most,
I feel haunted by the lies,
my own personal ghost.
Stupidity sticks to me like glue,
no one can help me,
not my friends, not you.
+1
You proved your love a million times,
Thought all his drugs and endless crimes.
Even when he went to jail,
My love for him never failed.
I told my family many a lie,
Made him out to be a decent guy.
But now hes found another,
Deserted me as a single mother.
Even now i are not sad,
He blamed me god that’s bad.
Now each night i wonder why,
I got no love from this guy.
And now i trace my steps from the start,
9yrs on he had no heart.
Lying in his girlfriends bed,
Still finds time to mess with my head.
Drugs and money was his game,
He’ll never admit he was to blame.
Sometimes at night i walk those streets and down the lane,
Trying to lose that empty pain.
