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Now i know why you ignored when you were on facebook….
You don’t love me….
Now i know why you wouldn’t answer my texts…
You don’t care….
YOU can’t even answer my call….
You hear me crying on the other end
Begging for an answer as to why this happened.
You listen to me and just delete it….
You don’t care….
No feelings…..
You say i did nothing wrong
But i had to for you to leave me…..
Maybe i didn’t love you enough…
Maybe i didn’t support you enough….
Am i to wait for you with a broken heart….
Or am i just some woman like you said…
Tell me what to do because i am lost without you.
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Theres a thought in my head,
which makes me doubts,
There’s a feeling in my heart,
which is not allowed,
It doesn’t matter how hard I’ve tried
I’m strong.
But the feeling is stronger.
Looking for myself.
Always used to be to act as you want .
But everything was always wrong.
I needn’t to look in the mirror
To see what you see,
I feel it
And it makes me weak,
without doing anything about it.
So maybe I’m strong, maybe I’m weak
But I have to deny all the time
Can’t leave it all behind,
Everything is crossing my mind.
I know
past will always be strong,
But I hope the marks will fade out soon.
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Whenever i see u smiling
i just want to smile back……,but
the smile won;t break up through my serious thoughts
i asked myself…”why and why”
but myself…….would not answer me..
i feel deserted whenever i see u smiling lonely
without getting a response smile
and still continuing to smile at me again and again
I see you from the corners of my eyes…everyday
i can see u looking at me everyday..
i can see u peeping at me
and putting together that warm smile of yours.
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When I wrote you a love letter,
Everything was holding me back–
Too many forces
My skin divorced from myself
All that was left
Was a skeleton walking on its own
Picking up a pen…
Was it ever this hard?
Writing what I felt…
Every word should catch you off guard
Since I’ve scared you off,
Should I try again?
I’m full of worry that I can’t amend
A fowl play
Who knew that ink
Could erase all our precious moments
Who knew that time
Could make us each others distant memories
I think I’ve felt enough
Reality’s given me first class seats
Hope lingers and that’s what keeps
Me loving you.
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Should i drop a tear? Should i make a sound?
Bringing sadness to the heart and reeking blood across this ground.
The clattering noises, the ruthless pain?
Why listen to a story that has been held in vain?
The life of a queen, the life of the poor.
As i drew this heart on a paper the crack again tore.
The late sleepless nights and heart wrenching pain.
The more situations that have held the less trust we regain.
Falling to the ground, no breath and no heart.
Not knowing where it’d end or where it would start.
Tears avoiding love and love avoiding life.
Where was track lost? It’s nowhere in sight.
Candle lite room when darkness appears.
It seems to rekindle all of my fears.
That’s when I knew,
A heartless dream must be near.
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Dear Invisible Man,
I wanted you to know
All of the memories of me and you
Go to show
That’s all you are is just a memory
You became a part of the past
Disappearing, like a vanishing act
Invisible Man,
I needed you to be that guy
Who stands by my side
Through
The lonely nights
When i started to cry
You left me feeling like someone punched me in the stomach
And I’m just standing there,
Screaming!
For you to hear me
Invisible Man!
Why cant you understand!
The way i feel
How my heart aches when you come near
Just let me be.
Just let me heal,
from all the pain
Now nothing will ever be the same.
The most suffering i could withstand,
What you brought upon me,
My Invisible Man.
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I see you sleep, On this gorgeous night
I feel you next to me, and all is right
With your arms around me, breath on my neck
Im taken to a secret place
Your kiss on my lips, such a sweet taste
Your love surrounds me, a memory never to be erased
The love we make, like no other
Makes me keep the secret no longer
Of what behind a closed door
As my eye’s open, and the sun starts to shine
I realize still, that this is just a dream of mine.
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The hardest thing in life is love,
It makes you wonder but it’s not enough,
We say we’ll be together until the end,
But truth is you left me just around the bend.
You don’t know what you did,
You don’t know how much it hurt,
I loved you like no other,
But in the end your feelings changed,
You just left me there with nothing,
I felt like a bird with no wings,
I didn’t know what to do,
I didn’t know where or who to go to,
All I know is I’ll always love you.
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Waiting on Love,
Look Above,
Waiting For Him,
To Come Along,
I Wonder What Went Wrong?
How Did I Lose Everything,
I Lost Him, I Need Him,
Can I Have Him?
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I knew it was going to be difficult
Especially for me
I’m trying to forget about you
But you keep on reappearing
You say you just want to be friends
But I can’t even handle that
Just seeing you walk away
Is enough to make me go crazy
The day that you say goodbye
It pushes me to cry
Only one question is going through my mind
Why do are you making me suffer?
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Life won’t be the same again,
The sun’s rays won’t be as bright as before.
There’s emptiness in my being and nothing can fill the gap,
Though smiles are drawn in my lips,
They won’t be as sweet as they used to be.
I put up a strong facade,
Trying to be tough and firm in others’ sight.
But my deafening sobs echo during the darkest nights,
Haunted by your memories that linger in my mind.
I long for you but I must deny,
This feeling isn’t right even from the start.
I am fooling myself, trying to hold on a fragile hope,
But soon, everything will break loose,
And nothing will be left but a broken soul.
If only wishes come true,
I’ll run to you and hold you tight.
Not minding my past, no looking back,
I will sit still next to your heart.
But this is such a selfish creed.
You and I, will end so soon,
Leaving me behind lost and alone.
No one can mend my broken heart,
Because it’s only you I need all along…..
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Back in the interiors of the crosswalk
The succession of the blissful scenes
On the walls of the word beautiful
stood an angel in the form of flesh
Her smile as lovely as the lilies in autumn
Her eyes glimmer in the colors of gold
I saw the contours of her body
The pride and priceless velvet skin
I swear the look on her face could move mountains
A feel of her touch and you’ll be nowhere but next to paradise
I wanted to hold her close
But she was so far away
Yet I feared neither distance nor time
For her image was just an inch away
I call her a star in my universe
The living of my nights
The glitters of my day
She is all that matters and still is
The beauty in me.
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Lies continue to be told
All my tears, I cannot hold.
What keeps me having hope, I may never know.
But I know that if you love me, you never let it show.
I’ve grown tired of your “apologies”
All the worthless Sorries.
Yet I continue to hold hope to the future that we shall not have together.
You say you know you hurt me, but yet you cause me pain that lasts forever.
Please, if you dont love me, set me free.
It’s worth it although it will hurt Ainsley.
Every night i dream….of a perfect us.
Where there’s love….and bundles of trust.
Happy I am, until I wake.
Realizing the truth, I begin to shake.
Tears begin to fall, washing away the smile that was once there.
Words cannot express how much I care.
Weather you do or not, Is a mystery.
Are you going to let the story of us end here, and become history?
Loving someone shouldn’t hurt me.
But I guess I’ll continue to dream of how we should be.
One day I”ll get the courage to leave you.
And maybe you’ll realize how my love was true.
Sadly those things shall never happen, so for now all i ask of you is…….
Never tell me you love me, until you are ready to mean it.
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I’m all smiles now
Every now and then there’s a tear running down my face
Sometimes it’s about you
I think of what we could’ve been
Of all we could’ve done together
It hurts me that I told you how I felt
& you didn’t even care
You didn’t even give me a response
But that made me realize
That it just maybe wasn’t meant to be
That what I felt for you was nothing
But a “lovey dovey crush”
But when I fell for you
I fell for you hard
There was no turning back
But now I’m over that
I’m over of what I felt for you
Not completely
But enough to live my life to the fullest extent
To be happy, to be able to smile for real again.
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After how much I confided in you
You decided to just betray me
I trusted you
And you trusted me
Where the hell did all of that go
You just betrayed me for someone else
But my heart still says that i love you
But I just gotta call from my brain saying its
Just an illusion
Stupid love…
Cant believe i was actually falling for you
I’m sorry tummy for all the butterflies he made you feel
I’m sorry pillow for all the tears that he caused
I’m sorry heart for all the pain he made you feel
To my brain you were so right..
When you got your friends around you
You treat me just a random person
But if we’re alone you treat me I’m someone important
I don’t know if you love me
But I know that my heart still does
But my brain says it doesn’t…
I’m sorry, but I love you…
But why do I even try?
You never notice me…
There’s no point in telling you
How I feel
You wouldn’t care.
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So stupid of me to let you go
just letting you slip through my fingers
like grains of sand
All that we went thru
All the history
All the memories
All the time we spent building up our love..
I destroyed it in less than five minutes
I’m sorry.. x|3
I wasn’t thinking straight
Now I realize that you really did love me
But its too late
You proved it to me in any way possible
But I just didn’t realize that..
I really do love you
That you meant it when you said that
You loved me
What I did wasn’t a loss to my heart & yours..
But It was murder to love that we had
All the love that you gave me..
I was too stupid too careless
To realize that it was pure and true
I’m sorry..
I know my words aren’t enough
For you to forgive me
I just wanted you to know that
I loved you then..
And I still love you now x3
So many things to write
About how I love you..
But it won’t really make a difference..
Cause you probably forgot about me by now..
But know…And always remember in your heart..
That you were my first love..
What i felt for you wasn’t anything at all what felt for other guys..
You’ll always be in my heart
“If I had a chance again I’d never let you go,
hold tight to your love cuz you never know”
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You took my heart
You tore it apart
You were planning to throw a dart
Form the very start
To make me fall
Well now it’s my call
To make you crawl
& say this to you all
Say goodbye to your dictator ways
Cause I say that a new phase comes today
No more pain nor tears
Coming from this soul
That you broke down to tears
Shattered her dreams
Played her love
Who the hell you think you are?!
Making this soul suffer
making it cringe & stutter
Since it was from its own lover
Leaving it suffering…choking…
You just stare at it…
You make no movement
But a hint of a smirk is coming up.
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I have felt rejection
And pain that never goes
I’ve endured the worst of cruelty
And shame that never shows
I’ve taken all the outbursts
Without the chance to speak
Reduced to tiny pieces
Because someone else was weak
I’ve been left alone to lick my wounds
No privacy to weep
And for the chance of happiness
My silence I must keep
It is a burden I must shoulder
And never try to share
Because when I really needed love
I found it was not there.
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Have you ever witnessed the apple fall.
Have you experienced love beyond a mortals dream?
Or a look that commands the Stars to shine.
Can you imagine a smile that humbles all that paradise has to offer.
Such a love chose my heart, my dreams,
And turned my darkness, into a new sunrise
Where love opened my eyes to a beautiful new world
That day the heavens witnessed me falling from the tree of love
To be consumed by this girl, with a voice to grace
The silence of any virgin valley.
A kiss soft, moist, like the birth of a rainbow
With An embrace to make the bluebells of spring bow their heads
Leaving me with a desire, to stop time,
A moment of love, to last forever
But lovers fears, led to lovers tears
And the west wind took her away
To a place where another happiness bloomed
And my dreams followed in dusts embrace.
This lost love I keep locked away
Deep within my soul
Now and then it escapes
Consuming me in hopeless longing
A trigger for Suicidal thoughts,
In the darkness, Just before Dawn.
A burden to my being, never to be lifted.
This love is my only Companion
For when my time comes
I will take this burden with me
A comfort through The Valley of death
A thing of beauty to show God
A love to keep for 1 day more than Eternity
My long lost Love, My moment in this life.
So remember my tale, and cherish what you have,
Do not pick up this pen, go kiss your love
And forget me.
Perhaps I will find my kiss in eternity.
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I ask to my heart,
i ask to my brain,
to tell me the simplest way:
in which i can forget you,
they just don’t replied,
but told me the time,
when i was with you,
when i smile with you,
but i replied them with an anger mind,
why don’t you tell me that WHY DO I LOVE HIM!?
